Big Heart, by lloyd Thayer

Big Heart

by lloyd Thayer

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1.	So Tired of Waiting for Your Love 03:17	lyrics	buy track
So tired of waiting for your love I’m walking the streets all night Chasing after frozen breath I gotta keep on moving So I don’t freeze to death Standing on the platform In the crowd I’m all alone And when I reach the right address, It sure don’t feel like home The icy streets are empty No one hears the sounds I cry I’m praying for you all night long But you just pass me by Surrounded like a bird In a barbed wire nest Afraid of my aloneness And everybody else Free me from this prison Inside this head of mine Help me see your face somewhere In all that’s rushing by I’m looking for salvation In every eye I see Help me unlock the door and see I’m sitting on the keys I’m a soul survivor Looking to begin again Looking for redemption And release from all my sins I know that you can do it Only you can set me free I know you have the power And your love it is the key 1/21/03
2.	Wonderland 03:19	lyrics	buy track
Wonderland pack up the babies and all the old ladies and your parking space saver lawn chairs get out of your pajamas, with yo babies mama’s and try to pretend that you care. Fire up the nova, I hope it turns over The gas tank’s emptier than low We lost the cap, and threw in a rag A molotov, low rider, pinto the callahan tunnel, is just like a funnel for lemmings heading under the sea we got the cramps, from your foodstamps this car heat is pig roasting me pray that you’ll save me, our lady of the lottery please let me get this one win, I’m on my knees, with the government cheese, Need a payoff to take me to heaven theres’ only one place, in the whole USA where they could pull off the big dig where it costes more than they said the week before and no one could tell what they did spent my last dime, after waiting in line with a program full of dreams wheel the quinella, just do what I tell ya I’ve got a miracle scheme my job it don’t pay, but I have to stay and you know the bills won’t go I got an itch, like a son of a bitch Gotta scratch it with tickets you know This gotta be the race, to save us from this place Our big ticket out of here Spend the last dollar, ignore the babies holla post time is almost here 5.2.02
3.	Addict 03:44	lyrics	buy track
Addicted Tell me why you are not here, when I need you You’re nowhere to be found Tell me why you are not here, when I bleed you Screaming without sound and I ain’t going down that long lonesome road that, leads me to your door I hate myself, when I need you Need you every day to survive I hate my need to be near you And you don’t even know I’m alive everywhere I feel you, inside me although I am always alone I never see you anymore, but you’re with me All the way inside of my bones Take away, these feelings, that beat like my heart’s in my head i’m talking to the walls all night They don’t hear a word I say The story never changes Although the days die by Who would I be without that story If I stop telling it and got peace of mind 3/16/03
4.	Concrete Island 04:46	lyrics	buy track
Concrete Island I am like a concrete island In the middle of the road Where all the trash collects When it’s trying to blow home I am like a parking meter In a parking lot of weeds Where soldiers have all been carried off upon their rusted shields And you are like an ocean That’s vast and wide and deep Wide awake , smiling at us As we fidget in our sleep Ch: someday I hope to meet you there On that other shore across the sea We’ll be shining all together Where we’re all wide awake and free I am like a tree stump In an abandoned factory town With a future that’s cut off and a past that’s hidden underground and I am like a rest stop on a long deserted road where nothing passes by and tumbleweed newspapers blow and you are like a mountain forever sitting rooted there perfectly peaceful watching us as we rush everywhere ch: someday we’ll be shining all together on that shore across the sea I hope to meet you there my friend Where we’re all wide awake and free 4/17/03
5.	Chubby Junkie 02:57	lyrics	buy track
chubby junkie Sully was a daytime angel With a suit so bright it hurt your eyes( almost as snappy as a preachers covering up his insides He had him some money, he don’t know where it went now he’s trying to make a dollar Out of fifty nine cents And mary knows that desperate feeling As she re-lights half a cigarette She’s three and a half years be-hind On her last years rent She tried to make the pain stop Swallowed a bottle of pills one night She wanted to go to heaven But she woke up in hell alive Eddy’s waiting restlessly, For the ice cream man who sells pot, whoever happens to be holding the gun is happy calling all the shots he’s just a chubby junkie, we’ve seen it all before Dr. jekyll n mr. Hide the car keys Is just a children’s bore Down by the dunkin donuts Hustlers hang disguised as men They sit and blow smoke stories about places they’ve never been they talk shit about a lot of things lie to cover up their fear But there is no glory there and no lottery win out of here Chr: now we’re all riding on a new train In the concrete delta night, And you may think your safe, and that you don’t apply This trains here to tell you, We’re all on death row , Some just have better seats, than the other guy do you know 5.5.03
6.	Flat World 05:51	lyrics	buy track
Flat World The keys are on the table The boxes are all, packed and bound We have reasoned all the reasons We are empty without sound And why did Jesus never mention If he knew the earth was round And how am I to know the answers For this sadness, we have found So what about the flat world? Everyone believed in that then Kind of funny looking back now But they had no way of knowing If we could see into the future Then we'd know just where we're going We would never make mistakes We just have no way of knowing Everybody seems to think That they are a real good driver Everything you've learned is true And you will be the one survivor When there's no one left to blame And if everybody's growing Sometimes people they will change You just have no way of knowing So what about the flat world? Everyone believed in that then Kind of funny looking back now But they had no way of knowing If we could see into the future Then we'd know just where we're going I'd have never said the things I did I just had no way of knowing 6.22.99
7.	War Starter Blues 04:39	lyrics	buy track
War starter blues Won’t you tell me son, what in the world is wrong with you Won’t you tell me baby, what in the world is wrong with you You looking for a fight, in every single thing you do When I was a young boy, my mama taught me right from wrong When I was a young boy, my mama taught me right from wrong She said don’t’ fight with nobody, and no one will want to do you no harm who do you think you are, everything you say is always right who do you think you are, everything you say is always right minding the whole world’s business, always looking for a fight I got the war starter blues watching you spread hate and fear I got the war starter blues, watching you spread hate and fear everywhere Got your mind closed off, and your fingers in your ears I know you gonna get what’s coming, you gonna reap what you sow I know you gonna get yours, you gonna reap just what you sow but you taking the rest of us down with you, down on this new killing floor won’t you tell me son, what in the world is wrong with you won’t you tell me sonny, what in the world is wrong with you wont’ you mind your own business before it’s too late, and stop acting like a goddamned (war starter fool) fool 3/7/04
8.	Freedom 07:06	lyrics	buy track
People talking all about freedom Don’t know a goddamn thing They talk a good game But they never lost nothing You wanna know about freedom baby You ask someone who isn’t free Go ask any inmate In the penetentiary My brother said “I spent time in the jungle humping the trail in viet nam Went to daisy cutter university While you fattened up and stayed at home I seen people die, Blood running thru the fingers of my hands So don’t ask me to to do your killing for you again Because you don’t understand Don’t tell me about your freedom war, And patriotism and flags When you don’t know nothing About endless days and endless body bags When the bullets start to fly And the bombs fall The people who talk the loudest Are the most afraid of all I made it out of that jungle Couldn’t find no job at home No one wanted nothing to do with me So I took the only road Wound up with my brothers here in prison We know all about being free And we know war is never good for nothing But a whole lot of misery Yes war is not an answer war won’t bring you peace love is still the answer, we need love For everybody to be free 4/3/04
9.	Home of the Brave 05:20	lyrics	buy track
Land of the free, home of the brave Rats and roaches and the paint peeling off On the down hill couch, you got laid off Trying to remember, trying to forget Heart is on the sidewalk, covered in cement The subway skronk,, rattles your teeth Shakes your walls, and there’s nothing to eat The bus blows smoke in the airs so thick Like/someone, hit you upside your head with a brick Don’t wanna go thru life this way, but there aint no choice, on the street today the land of the free, the home of the brave don’t see no future and yet there’s no escape the land of the free and the home of the gun live so fast and die so young You got two brothers, and youre in between one is in jail, he’s trying to stay clean doing five years, in an 8 man cell where the minutes last weeks, and it’s a non stop hell if he ever makes it out, he’s got half a prayer odds are, he’ll wind up, right back in there can’t find no job when you’re on parole No matter where you turn there aint no hope Try to do the right thing, walk the straight and narrow tight rope But you can make more money with the guns and the dope The land of the free and the home of the gun Every man for himself, till you think you won Land of the free, home of the brave, Coffin full of money in your early grave other brothers driving to work, waiting at the red light, Junkies coming by with a windshield wipe Do you give him money, or beep your horn Another day of living, he’s wishing he was never born Amerika the beautiful, if you got enough green, When everything goes and nothing is obscene These days are endless,you try to move ahead Feel like you’re on your knees more than you ever been You got a better chance, to win the lottery Than to make it out alive, from the amerikan dream The land, of the free, and the home of the brave The mark of the gun, and the early grave The land of the free, the home of the gun Filling up the ground with your daughters and sons The land of the free, the home of the gun Always on the move, the fightings never done 3/18/04
10.	Whole Heart 04:59	lyrics	buy track
Whole heart In desperate times Sky is filled with smoke, Don’t let their hate Turn your heart to stone When the darkness falls, And the rain won’t go Open your eyes wide Let your big heart go =ch. When the cold wind blows And every door is closed Hold on to your heart You’re still on the road When the sky rains fire And the end seems near Don’t close down your heart And give in to fear =ch. When the waters rise Rivers overflow Head for higher ground Let your small mind go =ch: let your big heart set you free From all the things you think you know Let your big heart take you there Where your small mind won’t go 4.4.03
11.	Fixing Things 02:58	lyrics	buy track
Fixing Things All around the world, Just as far as I can see, Everyone thinks they knows how perfect things should be Well we know I am’nt perfect, And I aint working on it already had way too much of the things That I thought I wanted and all around the world baby I aint even joking people surely fixin things that sho nuff ain’t broken That went so far over my head it didn’t even muss my hair there’s so much I don’t understand it’s not that I don’t care you might think I’m lazy, crazy that I don’t accomplish much but at least I got the sense to know when enoughs enough I know you didn’t ask me But I’ll tell you and don’t laugh You’re chasing after things You already have always have a million questions always on the brink Always so much drama When you’ve had to much to think It’s better to play that guitar, Even out of tune and all than to slowly let it hang itself up there upon the wall I used to know so many things But I forget em all, you can tell but looking back with wiser eyes it’s probably just as well 12/25/03
12.	Desolation Row 07:30		buy track
13.	See You Tomorrow Blues 03:36	lyrics	buy track
See you tomorrow blues Jimmy got tired, of running around But he wouldn’t put, his running shoes down Waking up lazurus, with a whistling sound When it gets too hot, you head underground Red tires, blue balloons, rusty landmine feelings, come back too soon Fourth of july friends, wont come down Nobody wants you, in they tourist town See you tomorrow blues, It’s the things you don’t say, that stick to you like glue And give you the see you tomorrow blues See you tomorrow blues, I hope I see you tomorrow So fast and so bright, no one sees Before you knowtice, we’re on our knees the day is long, the heat is slow, How I started up again, no one knows At the VA hospital, wait days in a line they say what’s wrong, if you got time The daylight is fading, everyone’s gone home The square is empty, we’re alone See you tomorrow blues, It’s the things you don’t say, that stick to you like glue And give you the see you tomorrow blues See you tomorrow blues, I hope I see you tomorrow No straight job, could hold you down Make a few dollars, for one more round as opera man, he sings his songs and we’re all bellows, we don’t belong You made us laugh, you pissed us off We swore the blues, and then forgot But hoboes is always, on the move That’s how they hide, the see you tomorrow blues See you tomorrow blues, It’s the things you don’t say, that stick to you like glue And give you the see you tomorrow blues See you tomorrow blues, I hope I see you tomorrow
14.	Rag Stalks 115th Dream 02:10		buy track

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released January 11, 2004

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lloyd Thayer Boston, Massachusetts

loyd Thayer puts the ‘multi’ in multi-instrumentalist, playing a mind boggling assortment of stringed instruments including but not limited to: 22 stringed Indian Chaturangui, Dobro and Weissenborn lap steel guitars, Turkish Oud, Saz and Cumbus, Ragmakamtar, Afghan Rabab and more. A recovering street performer his songs combine...... ... more